Passion

As usual I really enjoyed worshipping together with other believers yesterday. The worship was quite powerful and the message very pointed. The brother spoke from I Corinthians where it says that when we meet together everyone should have something to share, and thus edify the body of Christ. However, he went a direction that I did not expect. He said that for that to be possible we must be spending that time investing in our relationship with God. If not, we will not have anything to share when we meet together. He went on to speak about the importance of our time spent with God, passion for God, reading the Word, and praying. This is an area where I have made progress in the last months, but still lack much in the way of discipline, especially when it comes to prayer. I have really enjoyed reading the Word; it has come alive for me.
As another preacher said recently, "If we don't have passion for God, we will not have passion for the lost." How true. It is very humbly to take an honest look at myself and realize where my passions lie. Too often I am more passionate about things other than my relationship with God. Where do put my energies and what do I spend my time thinking about?
Think about it!

Faith

I think that, perhaps, in a previous blog I have written about faith, but it has been on my heart again recently, so here goes. It has been revealed to me, once again, that having faith and trusting God is an incredibly freeing thing. This has been on my mind as we look toward the future, after we end our term here with MCC in July 2010. My human, westernized, inclination is to try to “figure it all out”. What am I going to do, how are we going to make a living, etc. However, I have heard very clearly from the Lord, a couple of times, that he is asking me to trust him. The amazing part to me is that, instead of feeling more stressed about not knowing how things are going to work, I feel free. I know that He has an incredible plan for my life and I know that all the resources in the world are his. Why in the world would I have any reason to doubt that he will take care of us? I am excited to see what it is exactly that he has in store for us, but I am at peace waiting on his timing.

Que el Señor les bendiga grandemente!

Another lesson in rights

Just when I think that I have a good perspective on the things that are "mine" God sends another test my way to see just how tightly I am holding onto my possessions. On Saturday, as I was enjoying an hour away eating breakfast with my lovely wife, the jeep was broken into and the radio and a set of sockets were stolen. This happened on a busy street with lots of foot traffic. I never even dreamed that something like that would happen in that location. Anyhow, as in the past when various other small things have been expropriated, I was challenged, once again, to realize that all of the "things" that I like to think are mine, are really God's things. I can quickly judge just how tightly I am holding onto those things by my reaction when I found out that they have been taken. Do I rejoice or am I infuriated that someone would dare to do such a thing? Well, I wouldn't say that I rejoiced, but am happy to say that I have found that I can have peace even in such circumstances.
Here is the rest of the story: We had parked almost directly in front of an internet cafe where a friend works. We went in and said hi then walked 50' down the street to eat. A bit later the friend looked out and saw that someone was in the jeep so he said, "hey, isn't this steve's jeep". The kid said that it was someone elses and so, since he didn't see us anywhere, our friend went back inside to work. We returned to the jeep a bit later and quickly realized what had happened. I started it up to leave and, being that the power wire for the now nonexistent radion was shorted out inside, melted all the wires together that went to the positive battery terminal. After a quick "farmer fix" another friend accompanied me to our favorite electrician and he had it all fixed up before lunch.
On a side note, when I bought the jeep the ignition was so worn that any key in the world would start it. It was on my list of things to fix until a couple weeks ago a friend came to work and said that he had a dream that the jeep was stolen. Within a couple days I went and had the ignition replaced. What would have happened if I had not had it replaced? Who knows, but I firmly believe that God speaks to us in many different ways.

The Lord bless you and keep you. May His face shine upon you and give you peace."

Unknown destination

Every time that I reread "the faith chapter" (Hebrews 11) I am struck by the incredible faith represented in each of their lives.
I am excited, as I look ahead to the next chapter of our lives, to see where God is going to take us. It appears, at this point, that the physical location will be back in PA, but I am more interested in where He is going to take us spiritually. What opportunities are we going to have to minister to the poor, the needy, the widows, the orphans, etc? I find a tremendous in knowing that if we follow him wherever He leads we cannot possibly go wrong.

Fear

I realize it has been a long time since I have written anything, but this does not mean that God has not been doing anything in my life! Actually there have been a number of things going on, and I simply have not had the energy to try to put my thoughts together in coherent sentences.

God has been showing me recently how much of a problem fear is in my life. I have, for as long as I can remember, had trouble speaking up, making phone calls, going new places, meeting new people, etc. Recently we were listening to a tape of a message that we had heard a number of years back regarding "the Father's love". I was struck particularly by the verse from 1 John 4 that says, "Perfect love drives out all fear". In other words if I am comfortable with the Father's love I will not have any fear. If I know who I am in the Father, and realize deep in my heart, that He has made me just the way He wanted, and that He loves me just the way He has made me, I will not be bound by fear of man. I think I lay awake for a good part of that night repeating that verse over and over again, and basking in the peace and freedom that I felt with the realization that I do not need to live in fear of what others may think of me.
I am glad to say that since that night, a few weeks ago, I have been able to step out and do some things that I would have struggled to do before, and as I take those steps I enjoy an even greater release from fear.
I want to challenge you to honestly analyze your life to see whether fear may be keeping you from not only doing things that enjoy, but more importantly, keeping you from being obedient to God. Fight against that fear. Do not accept it! It is not from God! HE LOVES YOU JUST THE WAY YOU ARE! Why should you fear what ANYONE may think.

Blessings and Peace

Kingdoms

Here in Nicaragua there is always some kind of real news happening, often involving the government, that probably does not get any coverage outside of this country. Honduras has made the international news recently with its political machinations, but what has been going on here is probably just as newsworthy.
Thinking about this, and whether it was worthwhile writing about some of these things so that family and friends in other parts of the world could be informed, I was struck by the thought that all of the kingdoms of this world are the same. They (politicians) are all in it for the power and the glory. Even if they enter the political arena with pure ambitions they soon give in to greed, corruption, and the lust for more power.
From the, now-deposed, would-be dictator in Honduras, to the current president/dictator her in Nicaragua, and even to our own infanticide-supporting president of the USA, none of them is really interested in justice.
Why did Jesus say that His kingdom is not of this world? He had little interest in what the earthly kingdoms were doing. He was, and still is, more interested in establishing a heavenly kingdom.
What should this tell us? The church should not be spending its time trying to build righteous earthly kingdoms, but rather focus its energy on the heavenly kingdom. Rather than attending political rallies and protests, and arguing over whether a pro-war president is better than a baby-killing president; we should be proclaiming Jesus Christ and His kingdom. And, yes, He did command us to pray for our leaders!

Update from life

As you have probably noticed, I have not written anything in quite some time. Obviously, this is not because nothing has been happening in our lives. I have been up to my eyeballs in work for the past few weeks and, of course, the boys keep me hopping when I am at home.
Anyhow, I wanted to share a bit of some of the things that God has been lately. As I shared some time ago, we have decided not to return to the church that we had been attending previously. Not really relishing the prospect of looking for a new church home, we had been putting it off. Finally, this past Sunday my wonderful wife encouraged me that we should stop making excuses and go to the morning service of a church down the street. I had to admit to myself that all of the "good" reasons that I had for not going were really just excuses. So we went, and wow did it feel good to be back in a gathering of fellow believers to worship together and hear the Word. We (actually Colleen) noticed that, contrary to the norm in the churches here, there were quite a few couples and men in the church. Additionally, we enjoyed the message about the importance of being purposeful about the spiritual instruction of our children. Overall, we enjoyed the experience and will definitely return to the church.
I would like to share a bit more about the theme of marriages and families. We can see that the enemy loves to attack marriages and families. In our own lives he has been hard at work as well. I would like to say that he is never successful in his schemes, but that would not be true. However, I am happy to say that in the past weeks Our Loving Father has been at work revealing the lies of the enemy and restoring brokenness.
Our devotional for this morning was based on Psalm 50:21 "These things you have done and I kept silence; you thought I was just like you." The writer of the devotional challenges the readers to speak up in the face of sin because if we do not everyone will think that we approve of the behavior. At the end he asks if there is something that we could do to influence our sphere for Christ. Our answer was that we should support marriages and families. It is apparent that the church (universal) is not doing a good job of encouraging, admonishing, and supporting couples. Why else is divorce just as prevalent within the church as it is outside?
As I was working with a few fellows this week we were talking and in conversation the one Christian brother asked me a question that underscored the magnitude of the battle in this particular culture. "So, honestly, how many years have you been faithful to your wife?" Thankfully, by the grace of God I am able to answer that I have been faithful for the entire 9+ years that we have been married. How sad, that this seemed to surprise them. The enemy is hard at work here in that area and the strongholds are monumental. I believe that this is an area that the church needs to attack through prayer, more prayer, and more prayer.

Sorry for the rambling. I did not have my thoughts together very well.
One closing thought: If we really believe that God hears our prayers why do we not spend more time praying?